Kyles Day Jay

blowing dust off

2005-12-05T05:15:55Z

i thought it would be cool to update again. i swear i havent since like last year. damn its been awhile. well i dont know what to say other then romeo an juliet is almost over. damn... all that work for 6 shows? wow. well i guess itsvtime to get ready for the next show. The wiz? but why again to do it for only 6 shows? it doesnt feelworth it. oh well.

well talk to ya later journal. byebye

kmandbay @ 2005-07-09T16:31:00

2005-07-09T23:31:44Z

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v498/kmandbay/suzuki.jpg

kmandbay @ 2005-05-10T20:24:00

2005-05-11T03:26:57Z

Ok so kelsea came and the weekend was perfect. we did everything. it was like we were an old married couple. and when we came home from prom we went to my house... and jsut layed there. thats it. we didnt do anything else. we just feel asleep and it was so peaceful.

now heres the question... why aint i happy? why am i still upset?i think i know, but i never do. i miss her.

weekend

2005-04-11T00:37:50Z

So this weekend all the work came to an end. We had Ohlone and Mr. Liberty

Mr. Liberty was really fun. Lots of people. lots of cheering, lots of laughs. the intro was fun and when everyone screamed for spiderman i was pumped up. did my talent which went really slow for me but fast in reality. AS soon as i made the cane appear everyone yelled. i was so juiced i pimped walked all the way over to sam. finished the rest of the trick and everyone loved it. In the end price became mr. liberty but i was peoples choice. won some money went home happy. got ready for ohlone.

PLayed LA freeze and did really well. Met THE TEMPERORY DERRECKS from cali and they were really awsome. second round came up and we could of done alot better but we didnt know the game, they picked for us. we made it to the finals and had to do a 7-8 min scene. we tried our best but thought it could of gone better. we got third place out of a good 12 and were complety happy with it.

it was great. good weekend. now getting ready for One Acts. "Here we are, arent we?"

win the money

2005-04-03T22:59:45Z

hey everybody. here is the game..my friend has a name on AIM which is"SHTONMYCHESTLOTS". they are a jr. at liberty high school. the game is to find out who they are. if you find out they will pay every person 30 bucks.SO as soon as they come back online IM then. good luck and be quick. be sue to tell me who yo uthink it is so i can let you know if you are right.

FUN FUN

2005-04-03T02:37:32Z

hey everybody. here is the game..my friend has a name on AIM which is"shtonmychestlots". they are a jr. at liberty high school. the game is to find out who they are. if you find out they will pay every person 30 bucks.SO as soon as they come back online IM then. good luck and be quick. be sue to tell me who yo uthink it is so i can let you know if you are right.

I LOVE IT

2005-03-10T04:42:20Z

"Hands Down"

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

kmandbay @ 2005-03-06T21:31:00

2005-03-07T05:53:12Z

well now the show is over. it was odd. in the begining it was just gonna be a show. but i left my whole quad life behind me to do it. set construction was fun and good to get close to friends but i didnt really relize how great it was until the first weekend.

i was gonna be home alone all weekend and i didnt know what to do. i dont like being home alone so i decided to ask matt if he wanted to stay the night. he said ya. we went to the opening party and swam in the pool and almost got my ass beat. it was interesting. even though i only said how i really felt, i think its still true. haha

eventually others like justin and nick decided to come too. we were up so late to the point that anything that was said was hillirious. the next morning we played poker and i took money from justin. the next day was another show and matt stayed at my house for another trip. we went to the show again and had another good show. this time we went to dennys right after and became annoying to the whole place. all 15 of us. we sang songs like "aint no mountain high enough" and "you lost that loving feeling". afterwards mike, ben, and mark came with the two of us back to the house. the next morning mark organized my movies and we all played DDR. haha

then all of sunday i hung out with mark. we played card games the whole morning we left the house grabed Will and went bowling. then at like 7 we wnt out and saw a movie. on a school night. it was interesting for me.

eventually it was monday and i got in trouble fro taking my bros car. but it was all worth it in the end. i made some really great friends and its hard to know the show brought it all, and ended it all. i know i wont be aroudnt the PAC as much as before but i will have those memories. in stand by me they end with these words. it may not be the same here exactly, but to the pac it is true. "ill never have friends like the ones i had when i was thirteen(in the Pac)" RAT PAC FO LIFE

kmandbay @ 2005-02-01T22:41:00

2005-02-02T06:48:26Z

look at this pic and tell me that not hot! i dont think you can!

if it doesnt work ill try again later

SF rules. but not cars

2005-02-01T04:26:41Z

So this week has been fun. i went to the city with nicole, paige and hallie on sunday for magic stuff. hallie and paige came to my house and picked me up then we picked up her sister. i was amazed how fast we got to SF and i was like "wow, we will be here for hours!."

well it turns out not everyone knows the directions to the place. We sat in the car for an extra hour just looking for the shop its self. lol. let alone any street near it. we ended being to far in front of it. then drove completly around it. it was still fun though. they are good clean funny people so it was interesting with me in the car. we found it, went in and we talked to the guy for a little. then these two kids came in a they said they were the "chris tucker" and " jackie chan" of magic.

they were funny, but they were not to great. paige was funny to look at because she would just roll her eyes with the idea, "kids.god!" lol. then i went to talk to joe, the owner. he helped me out and i was sold on what ever he showed me. then we went to popeyes and got some chicken. saw homeless people. ALOT of homeless people. it was sad. but of course we just kept to our selves. other then that it was a great trip and i hope to do it again. thanks girls.

9

2005-01-19T03:02:02Z

I was heading to the car and she was already in there with my mom. i decided to sit in the back with her and just have my arm around her. we talked with our phones with text the whole way there. we got teary eyed and we werent even in livermore yet. the car are closer and we were soon to be further. it was getting hard. it was going to be diffult just to turn away.

we finally got to her door and we held hands the whole way up. i looked in her eyes. "i love you," i said. "i love you too," she said back. we talked about the great things that happened. the shoe shopping, the movies, the food, everything. i kissed her on the lips and i didnt want to stop, let alone leave. it was pain. the worst pain ever. yet...i didnt cry. she cried alittle bit and i was about to,, but i didnt. i dont know why. maybe it was because she wasnt gone yet. eventaully, i did walk away. and i couldnt take my eyes off of her.
i got in the car and kept watching her. then when she was out of sight...i cried. i couldnt help it, i just let it all out. my mom kept telling me i can call her when ever and fly her down some time, but i knew it wouldnt be that easy. and all i could think about, was if i could get one more look of her. her smile i feel in love with, her lips i kissed, and her...just being her.

her in my life is the best thing to ever happen to me. she made ever moment better and better. and she wasnt just the hot girl to me. she was jessie's girl. and im glad i won.

END

8

2005-01-10T05:00:24Z

So it was the last week of being with her. there was so much we had planned. but it was coming to an end. A few days before her last weekend we were talking about her favorite book of all time. she said it was the polar express. it just so happen that that movie came out to theaters and i wanted to take her to it.

it was our last saturday. i drove out to livermore to go pick her up and her temp. house and she got in the car so we could head out. i surprised her with the movie and she was really happy. what made it all better is that we went to it in Dublin to see it on Imax. it was a good movie but a greater moment. afterwards we went to taxis and had some lunch. i had a camera so all day i took pictures of her and i. we talked about her last day soon and it brought us both to tears. i told her that i didnt want her to leave for the game cause we were gonna win it for her. she laughed and so did i. eventually i took her home and we saw eachother again monday at school.days went by and it finally came to thursday. i feared it would be our last night but it wasnt. she came to school that day and told me she was leaving on saturday. i was happy. yet sad. then friday came. game day.

it was her last night. and we were losing the game at half time. i dont know what hit the players but that score, of 24-0 turned to be 24-27 in the end. during the whole game i was focused on only those two things, her and the game. when we won we rushed the field and had a blast. then i wanted to find her. i saw her in the corner of my eye and ran up to her. i gave her the biggest kiss ever. i had this smile on my face that made us both happy. afterwards i got dressed and got ready to take her home for the last time.

only one more entry to go.

7

2004-12-29T05:55:14Z

I decided that i would take ryan walters to over to kelsea's house cause i knew she had another friend over and i didnt want to make her feel like a third wheel. so i brought him. we were having alot of fun swimming in stuff but kelsea and i decided to leave those to alone. we went to the car, listened to some music, talked and watched the other two have a fun time. it looked all normal until they started to kiss. we laughed and talked about it. we wondered if anything would become of it.

it turned out just to be another random hook up for kelsey so we let it slide. after wards i told ryan that it was a teammates sister and he freaked out. that weekend i decided that i would take kelsea and ryan to breakfast at denny's, but the deal was, we had to go in our pj's. i wore my liberty ones and kelsea wore her mighty mouse. it was fun. we all went home and fell asleep again.

More dates came and went, from movies like shark tale, and the grudge, to hanging out and meeting others friends. but the dead line was getting closer and so was homecoming. when homecoming came around i took almost all day to get ready. i want to look perfect for this girl so i tried extremly hard. I picked up Diamond and we headed out. We picked up kelsea and kelsey then we headed out to tracy and got some Chevy's. diamond was asked if he had ever been told that he looked like "50 cent or Wesley snipe". we said yes.
we got back to brentwood, took some pictures with her parents and headed in. it was so great to see this girl all dressed up because she was beautiful already and the dress just made it all better. we danced the night away and had a hell of a time. afterwards i took her home and we just sat in the car infront of her house and just talked. we were able to do that. we still didnt have to worry about anything else to, "have fun."
i kissed her good night and i headed home. but before i left she told me that she was leaving soon. and that was somethign i had to think about the whole ride home. she was leaving real soon. the day of the last football game. and it was only weeks away...

6

2004-12-19T23:23:40Z

We started the date with me just coming over. then when we got the chance we asked her dad if we could go for a walk. we walked thru the park and thru the streets. then we saw two others that we knew and said hello. we kept walking and came by the house where the cast party was held. we laughed. we got to a distance far enough so we walked back and talked some more. we came to a bench and just talked about how our relationship was gonna work out. and it was planned out great.

we got back to her house and decided to go get some food. we drove out to KFC and turned on the radio. we sang the whole way there and the whole way back. for my first time driving i was pretty good. she thought i was a safe driver which i think is good. we ate and decided we would go to sports chalet. We got there and i looked for new shoes. she couldnt see in chucks, so i got a different converse to which i still wear today. we were down with the shoes so fast we just walked around in the store for awhile. we played on the skateboards and looked at the paintball guns. after wards we got in the car and started to head back. we were debating if we were heading home or to another place. we stopped in the parking lot, and said this would be our only hard decision. she laughed and agreed. i wish that were true.

we drove to a gas station and filled the car up. as i taught her how to wash the windows, cause im mexican and i know best, i decided to get her with the water. we got into a little water war and got back in the car so i could take her home. we got back to her house and i kissed her for the third time that day. i know that number because i didnt have to kiss her the whole day to have a fun time. yea that would help but just hanging out was great enough.

days went on. and we had friends meet eachother. who knew two friends would get closer. Ryan walters would actually kiss a girl. but not just any girl... a team mates sister.

5

2004-12-18T01:44:12Z

Her and i were walking eachother to class everyday but nothing more special after that. Ren faire came up and i had plans on working the whole day. she told me she would be there most of the day and i was really looking forward for the times she was working.

Justin and i decided to throw in a little skit to his and bonadonas skit so it was getting more intresting. i decided to have kelsea participate in it to. we would yell at eachother as the others fought but we could not hold a straight face when doing it. After the skit we would flirt and talk. As a joke was starting to compare her and i to romeo and juliet. she got a kick out of it as much as i did. then justin walked by and told us we couldnt be together. "why not?" i asked. "cause..cause... your families dont like eachohther." it was great. perfect for our romeo and juliet comments. her boyfriend happened to be at the faire as the same time we were and the two of them were fighting. eventaully the show came to an end and later that day she broke up with him. was it for me?

Soon games came up and she came to them, but i couldnt have her come with out wearing my jersey. so she finally wore it. and she looked great in it. we started to talk more and i asked her if she had plans for homecoming. she told me early that her and kyle promised to go with eachother since 8th grade but she changed her minded and told me "i wouldnt have it any other way." the same day she wore my jersey i got my licence. it was a good day. that night i kissed her goodbye. but the next morning i couldnt wait to see her again so i drove out there around 11. it was early but it was worth it. because when i got there, i grabed my jersey, throw it in the car, and asked her out. With that great smile once again, she said yes. and we kissed. the beginning to our first, and perfect date...

4

2004-12-15T05:10:23Z

the cleaning began and we all had our jobs. we started to wash paint brushes and we put paint on eachother and started to really flirt. we finished our cleaning jobs and i went down to the audience. i didnt know who to sit by so i just sat there randomly. then she sat down in the row infront of me. i had to take the chance so i hoped the seat and sat right next to her. we talked and laughed. then the ghost light was over and we headed out to the party.

first we all just hung out a little, but as soon as i saw that volleyball net i knew we had to play. we got in the the water and guys verus girls. we beat the girls so bad, and it was nice to trash talk them. after that match we started to have chicken fights. i turned to kelsea and almost didnt have to ask. we were a team. we went at it with the other couples and we were winning for awhile. it was just her and me taking the lead. eventaully we started to lose and my shoulders started to hurt. so we got in the hot tub and relaxed and talked some more. the party was coming to an end and i had to go.

i went out front and waited for my ride and kelsea came out there with me. we started to walk away slighty to the other side of the house. then, we were out of sight from everyone. then i looked at her. "did you have fun?" "why yes i did." "oh ok." back and forth that went and she gave me her wonderful smile and i had to lean in. then, we kissed. it was amazing. the moment, the timing, the situation, and everything else. but then my car pulled up and i had to go.

at school later that week i walked her to her class. and we stopped at mine. we talked again and i looked at her and said, "i really wanna kiss you again." "me too" she said. but we didnt. but we had Ren faire coming and who knew what would happen...

3

2004-12-12T23:09:11Z

days of the play went by. still her and i were not anything more then friends. but something bad happened. she broke up with "jessie." He's a friend of mine and when a break up ocurrs you have to feel for him. but why did it happen? I asked her. She told me she was a freshmen and didnt want to already be tied down to a guy, and that she was moving anyways so to make it easier, she dropped it all.

i didnt know how to take the advantage. but when she called me durring the show that she was in, i had to go see her everytime. and everytime she was out on stage i would go out there to watch her. she was amazing. not the biggest part of the play, but still good at it. Later in the week she and i were talking more and i told her i liked her. she said the same to me. but there was another problem. she started to go back out with her ex boyfriend kyle. it sucked. i almost had her where i wanted her, and she was jessies girl again.
then came the last day of the play, followed by the cast party. i was being dumb and made a comment about one of her friends. she got mad at me and stopped talking to me. i didnt know how to take it. i thought i ruined everything. so i walked away and sat in a corner. then she saw me. and sat right next to me. she asked me what was wrong and i told her, "im jealous you have a new guy, and now youre mad at me..." we talked talked and talked. then randomly came up an idea. "if you have fun tonight you have to give me a kiss-" with out even a second gap she said yes. she gave her perfect smile that i feel in love with and she said yes. i repeated the statement and she said yes again. now i use had to make she we had fun...

part 2

2004-12-12T08:21:30Z

A week past and i wanted to know who she was. i was still caught up in another girl, but that all went away when i saw her. Then when i saw her again she wasnt alone. she had a boyfriend. She was someone elses girl. i knew i had no chance cause i didnt want to hurt my friend, and she would be too good for me anyways. But i took advantage of her being there.
We started to flirt. first i put my helmet on her, then picked her up and threated to but her in a thrash can. it was nice. but when it ended with the two of them kissing, i wanted to quit right there. but i didnt.

as time went by i saw her more and more. I, the ass hole i am, decided that i wanted to be with this girl and the only way to do that was to make sure that she knew i was there. so i was loud, and i was funny. but i never had a conversation with her.
One after noon her and catilyn decided they wanted to get food, and i did too. so we all went there together. it was really hard to believe she wanted to be there with me. but she did. so we all talked. but i was just so focused on her life, when she talked about it, i forgot she was someone elses girl. jessies girl. not mine. and i really wanted that to change...

FYI this is a story, love or something else, i dont know

2004-12-12T02:42:08Z

there will be more to this.. like a story

It started some time early in september. she was walked by and her smile caught my eye. as bad as it sounds i had two look twice. she was beautiful. i had to ask who she was. I was told her name was kelsea. i wanted to know more about her but i didnt know how to. so when she walked back alone i flirted alittle. then, she laughed. and when a guy got water on me and i told him he was getting the wrong person. because she was the one with the white shirt. she smiled. and right then and there i knew i wanted her. at what ever cost. her smile sold her for me and i couldnt give up there.

till next time...

make me feel good

2004-12-05T09:00:08Z

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do/did you have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

7. Describe me in one word.

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

12. How well do you know me?

13. When's the last time you saw me?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

oh boy, have fun

2004-11-28T00:20:18Z

1. Give me your number?

.2. Have sex with me?

.3. Let me kiss you?

.4. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?

.5. Let me take you out to dinner?

.6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?

.7. Take a shower with me?

.8. Be my bf/gf?

.9. Have a fling with me?

.10. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?

.11. Buy me a drink if i didnt have money?

.12. Take me home for the night?

.13. Would you let me sleep in your bed?

.14. Would you sing in the car with me?

.15. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?

.16. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?

.17. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?

.18. Do you think im pretty, beautiful, or hot?

.19. Do you like my style?

.20. Do you think im funny?

.21. Do you care about me?

.22. Would you cry if i died?

.23. Would you stop me if i tried to commit suicide?

.24. Would you dance with me?

.25. Would you sing happy birthday to me?

kmandbay @ 2004-11-25T18:49:00

2004-11-26T02:51:56Z

( ) I HAVE BEEN DRUNK.
( ) I DID HARD DRUGS.
(x) I HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.
( ) I HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX.
( ) I CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR.
( ) I HAVE BEEN TO JAPAN.
( ) I RODE IN A TAXI.
(x) I HAVE BEEN IN LOVE.
( ) I HAD SEX.
( ) I HAD SEX WITH MORE THAN ONE PERSON.
( ) I HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC.
(x) I HAVE BEEN DUMPED.
(x) I SHOPLIFTED.
( ) I HAVE BEEN FIRED.
(x) I HAVE BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT.
( ) I HAD A THREESOME.
(x) I SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE.
( ) I HAVE BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY).
( ) I HAVE BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING.
( ) I HAVE BEEN ARRESTED.
(x) I MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER.
(x) I STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB.
( ) I CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE.
( ) I WENT ON A BLIND DATE.
(x) I LIED TO A FRIEND.
( ) I HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER.
( ) I CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS.
( ) I HAVE BEEN TO EUROPE.
(x) I SKIPPED SCHOOL.
( ) I SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER.
( ) I CUT MYSELF ON PURPOSE.
( ) I BURNED MYSELF ON PURPOSE.
( ) I LIED TO A TEACHER TO GET OUT OF HOMEWORK.
( ) I'VE BEEN MARRIED.
( ) I'VE BEEN DIVORCED.
( ) I HAD SEX WITH MORE THAN ONE PERSON WITHIN THE SAME WEEK.
( ) I HAVE POSED NUDE.
( ) I GOT SOMEONE DRUNK JUST TO HAVE SEX WITH THEM.
( ) I HAD SEX WITH MORE THAN ONE PERSON WITHIN 24 HOURS.
( ) I HAD SEX WITH SOMEONE WHO'S NAME I DID NOT KNOW.
(x) I HAVE BEEN ON A PLANE.
(x) I HAVE GOTTEN A DETENTION.
( ) I HAVE EXPERIMENTED WITH DRUGS.
( ) I HAVE EXPERIMENTED WITH MORE THAN ONE KIND OF DRUG.
(x) I HAVE SKINNYDIPPED.
( ) I HAVE GOTTEN A TATTOO.
(x) I HAVE EATEN EXOTIC FOODS.
( ) I HAVE GONE HUNTING.
(x) I HAVE HANDLED WEAPONS.
(x) I HAVE DONE A BACKFLIP.
(x) I HAVE PRANK CALLED PEOPLE.
( ) I HAVE PURCHASED ANY NAUGHTY ITEMS.
( ) I HAVE BEEN GAY.
( ) I HAVE BEEN BI.
(x) I HAVE CALLED A GAY PERSON A FAG.wasnt thinking abuot it. and they replied "yea, so"
( ) I HAVE WORN A PINK DRESS.
( ) I HAVE BEEN TO PROM.
(x) I HAVE BEEN TO A CIRCUS.

She's So High....

2004-11-19T07:03:24Z

I keep fearing like im gonna lose her. but as i sit her i look at her picture and think to myself, "i never want to." People tell me to try to relax. i want to, i really do. but i also love her. ive never cared so much about something or someone. it feels like my heart is filled with air anf twisted like a screw.

i ask God why he took her away from me, but i think of it, and im glad he gave her to me. I love everyone moment i talk to this girl and im glad i meet her.

Shes so great i want her to have the time she deserves. I want her to have fun where she is. I dont want to hold her back. But i'll let her know that im always going to be here for her. muah Jessie's girl.

yay!

2004-11-19T04:35:30Z

captiveofdesire4: wait
captiveofdesire4: guess what?!?
MVP88OF06: what
captiveofdesire4: the craziest thing happend
captiveofdesire4: !
MVP88OF06: what...
captiveofdesire4: i feel in love with you
captiveofdesire4: xox

im in love....

thanks sam

2004-11-18T04:15:15Z

You don't know how much I need you.
While you're around I don't feel blue.
And when we kiss I know that you need me too.
I can't believe I found a love that's so pure and true.

But it all was bullshit.
It was a goddam joke.
And when I think of you Linda,
I hope you fucking choke.

I hope you're glad with what you've done to me.
I lay in bed all day long feeling melancholy.
You left me here all alone, tears running constantly.

Oh somebody kill me please,
somebody kill me plee-ase,
I'm on my knees,
pretty pretty please kill me.

I want to die.
Put a bullet in my head.